I am really trying hard to be thankful for what I have, instead of having all these materialistic, so called "needs". Do I REALLY need fall boots, an IPad, jewelry, a new hair color, etc? No. And to go even farther, do I need internet, cable, and a new cell phone? Probably not. Those things seem too hard to give up, right? I mean, I can live without a brand new phone, internet for a little while, and cable, while I'm trying to move into my new house... but I definitely don't have to have extra wardrobe accessories, a new image, or luxury items. That's all they are. I need to be grateful for the things right in front of me. I am so thankful for first
- My husband. I would not be here today if it weren't for him. I was in a VERY dark place when I first met Adam, and God bless him for finding the light he found in me. He has taught me patience, forgiveness, acceptance, and so much more. Adam pulled that light from the deepest depression right to the surface. He used to make me say positive things about me EVERYDAY. We would be laying together and he'd ask, "What's your favorite thing about yourself?" I couldn't say the same answer twice. He also asked what my favorite part of the day was. It really helped me to chin up, and keep an up-beat attitude. I am so grateful to have him. I love you Adam Dragon!
- My son. Carson gave me reason to start taking care of my diabetes. I never really put forth the effort in to taking care of my disease, until I got pregnant. Something in me (besides Carson, himself!) made me realize that I had to take care of myself and get my blood sugars perfect, or I would not be able to see my son grow up. I have never been healthier since the day I got pregnant. He makes me want to be the best in everything, so he has an amazing example of a mother. I am so happy that the both of us are here today, and I know that I need to take care of myself now and forever, so that I can see Carson grow. I am so grateful to have someone to motivate me. I love you Carson Riley Dragon!
- My mother. I cried right after writing those two words. I am more grateful for my mother, than ANYTHING in the entire world. I never realized this until she was gone. She drove me nuts, tagging along at every doctor's appointment I had with Carson, snooping, prying, and just being a mom. Haha. I'm so glad I realized she was just loving me and keeping me safe. If I had not given birth to Carson while she was here, I would have never been able to thank her for being such a great Mom. The first few days after having Carson my mom said to me "Do you see now, why I have done the things I have done, and that I have just been protecting you? You never want any bad thing to happen to him, do you?" She was totally right. Mom taught me how to stay strong, that I could do so much more than other people thought I was capable of. We always found a (creative) way for me to be able to do things. Once, we tied a string to the shifting gears on our four-wheeler that I could use to pull it in to gear, because I couldn't pull up with my bad leg. We once healed a bad wound on my ankle by creating our own hyperbaric chamber with her oxygen machine and a plastic bag (lots of tape was involved) I am so grateful that my mother showed me love, so I can show others. I love you Mama C.
I'm grateful for so much more, like the opportunities I have in life, the friends and family I have, the advice that has been given to me, the laughter all around me, and so much more. Thanks everyone, for being a part of my life. I truly love all of you and appreciate you in an individual, and personal way.